a work in progress

There has to be a villain, this could not be my fault

I need someone to blame for the way things turned out

I never change or make mistakes, I stay true to the cause

I need someone to blame to hold my head high as i live a double life

at the end of the day I'll use your name the public can be sold

look in my eye they gleam as flash my sparkling smile

I can keep this up all day and do it all the time

This is the life i live i can't get to the light

until then I will do it this way, it is the easy way the only way i know

god forbid I change my ways i never have as long as I lived

I just start over with all new peeps and lay it on so thick

by the time on done I believe it myself this quite a trick

each and every seduction starts this way and it will last for while

until i stub my toe a forget to play the game

now that i'm exposed and you have me figured out

you now will take the blame and are the villain of the day

this is just the way it is and no need to change

When you fix yourself i'll be right here you join in the fun

this is the way i live my lie

I do know right from wrong; deep down I'm good

When the other personalty makes the decisions I will be saved.

until then you are evil and stand with quite crowd

you are blocked yet I can't get you out of my mind

you changed your ways this can't be true; i want this for me

Henry McClure praying for change you feel in your heart

Henry McClure - a work in progress too

I need to wake up, get up, get out of bed.

I need to wake up, get up, get out of bed.

I need to brush my teeth,
look at myself in the mirror,
Turn the corners of my mouth up
Put my pants on, choose a sweater
Make breakfast (which I often leave untouched).
I need to write, I need to leave the house,
to see people, to meet people, to shake hands, to chit chat, to go to the grocery store, to the park, to the café, to find a new route home.
I need to close the door and open the door.
I need to sit on the tube, next to a stranger.
I need to watch a couple going up the escalator
kissing, giggling, holding hands
I need to go home,
I need to cook myself dinner, cook dinner for myself.
I need to look out the window and wonder, “What is he doing right now?”
Because
I need to accept the change.
The days are not the same anymore. The morning light is different, the smell in the room is not the same, there’s silence now. Sometimes I ask, “Wouldn’t it have been easier to stay? I was happy, wasn’t I? How can this possibly hurt so much?”

But listen, love (because you matter).

We need to wake up.
We need to close the door, we need to open the door.
We need to go to that yoga class, we need to go and see our friends, we need to make ourselves dinner, the first one, for ourselves.
We need to drink too much red wine because there’s no one to control us. We need to laugh. We need to go out in nature, to feel the sky above our head, to feel the cold grass beneath our feet.
We need to cry between the milk and the cheese selection at Tesco’s, squeezing a bottle of orange juice between our hands like an anchor.
We need to be okay on our own
when there’s nothing to do, nothing to read, nothing to watch, no one to chat with.
We need to sit with our feelings, we need to be alone
Because, “The only constant thing is change.” The change that I was seeking  for so long.
By accepting that things are not the same anymore, we can start healing, adapting to it.
Only then can we start breathing, without holding it in every other breath.

Listen to me, love: this is good for us.

Deep down, we know this is the right thing to do.
Now, take it easy.
Feel it. Slowly.
Grab the feelings when they are good, bad, even when they are sad.
Because one day,
We will wake up, and we won’t have to force ourselves out of bed
One day, we will have already made the breakfast
And gone to work
And finished the yoga class
And made the dinner and sat by ourselves, and
we will smile, and the smile will not be an escape.

One day, we will feel good again.
We will be whole again.
~

Author: Sara Kärpänen

Image:  coloredgrey / Flickr 

Editor: Toby Israel

For Everyone:

Something is different today as our attention is drawn into the future. Messenger Mercury has been reminding us to use the rearview mirror since it turned retrograde on August 30. Finally, we must apply the lessons we learned as Mercury resumes direct motion. Additionally, the Sun's shift into peace-seeking Libra at 10:21 am EDT marks the autumnal equinox in the northern hemisphere. Meanwhile, the curious Gemini Moon stirs our mental restlessness.

That was way too long.......................

For almost a century there was a thing called the “Jim Crow Law”s and from 1876 and 1965 there was an enforced mandatory segregation in all public places. Whites and blacks were not allowed to mingle in restaurants, post offices, restrooms, schools, stores or anywhere else. It was a dark time in modern civilization. While blacks were technically free, that was far from the truth until those laws were abolished in 1965.

not the glass ceiling we are looking for to be broken

We are on the third rock from the sun. To make one complete rotation in 24 hours, a point near the equator of the Earth must move at close to 1000 miles per hour (1600 km/hr). The speed gets less as you move north, but it's still a good clip throughout the United States. Because gravity holds us tight to the surface of our planet, we move with the Earth and don't notice its rotation1 in everyday life.

In addition to spinning on its axis, the Earth also revolves around the Sun. We are approximately 93 million miles from the Sun, and at that distance, it takes us one year (365 days) to go around once. The full path of the Earth's orbit is close to 600 million miles (970 million km). To go around this immense circle in one year takes a speed of 66,000 miles per hour (107,000 km/hr)3. At this speed, you could get from San Francisco to Washington DC in 3 minutes. As they say on TV, please don't try going this fast without serious adult supervision.

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So the way of the universe are still hard to grasp. As I mature and try to do better and know understating women is still a challenge. As you can see by Michelle's comments we are not on the same page.

Yes I might of been too graphic describing Monica Lewinsky's lips being on Bill Clinton's penis in the White House. This is NOT the Clinton Home and they should never step foot in there again. The hallway between the Oval office and the Presidents private office is restricted space yet still financed by the taxpayers and what takes place is subject to his employers discretion. This is about good and evil. Michelle and I were have a debate on family values. I do not see how feminists applaud Hillary. I the the whole motherhood thing out the window? How does Hillary justify the marriage to their daughter?

Lastly you could say Donald Trump is a gentleman. He embraced a women who at one time had to pose naked for money and still married her. True love wins. He loved her so much that part of her past is forgiven. When the universe brings you together and you feel that love connection you will do anything the keep it.

We need to have a women President someday. Just not this one. She is evil.

Michelle Marie Martin

September 8 at 6:59pm

Henry McClure Your comments are repugnant and repulsive. You totally are not getting the point and at this point you are being deleted from my friend list. What happened in the Clinton home is private and between them. The difference is that Melania Trump posed for money naked, that is NO role model for young women in this nation. I had hoped that you would be respectful of my space here but you are NOT.

Sooooooooooo Michelle; know I need an intern at mcre.